Not Of This World

After-Birth Abortion: The Pro-Choice Case for Infanticide 

Edit: Although I realize this is not a popular opinion among Pro-choice individuals, the thought of it is still very sickening and upsetting. 

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I’m here to offer my insight (as much as that may be worth).

Also, I would love it if you guys came to me with prayer requests. 
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 I want to know who you are
Even if you’re falling apart
Reach in and touch your scars
And all the shame you’ve kept in your heart

‘Cause it’s not enough
it’s not enough
just to say that we’re okay
i need your hurt i need your pain
it’s not love any other way

‘Cause I already know who you are
And all things that kept us apart
So reach in and touch My scars
and know the price I paid for your heart. 

God says, BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS!!! 
Why? 
Because He loves you. That’s why. 

And I don’t mean that constant sort of loneliness or yearning for another person. I mean that deep, very alone kind of feeling. 

The kind of feeling where no one will be able to see into your heart to feel your hurt.

They can say they understand or that they can relate. But no one can truly know. 

But God knows.

And God hurts too.

So take it to him. Because he truly understands.

There is no describing. 

For your kind words and encouragement. 
I am truly blessed to have such a great group of followers.

Sometimes I post things when I am in such despair that I do not think. Mostly, I do not remember that of which I was reminded of today: It always gets better. Even after the darkest night, the morning will come with renewed joy. Thanks. :)

Because you encounter someone who doesn’t know God loves them? 
Do you ever become overwhelmed by the knowledge that someone hates God with all their heart, and they have no idea how much He lays down for them?

I don’t know if I’m just being oversensitive, or if this is a blessing or a curse. But I experience this feeling very often. 

I’m just tired. It’s only been 4 days since I really found Christ. And I’m exhausted. My bones feel heavy. This weekend and the beginning of this week have been really busy and I’ve been really passionate in God. It feels as if it’s been weeks.
I’m not losing faith, or losing steam even. It’s just that today, right now, I’m so extremely tired. I just can’t be enthusiastic or excited about anything right now. I’m happy, and I’m content. But I’m sad, in the way that we get sad when we’re really exhausted. I think I’m going to take a nap.

What do you guys suggest I do to get some genuine relaxation and rest, or why do you think I feel so tired? 

about my anger earlier. 
I just get really worked up.
And I just want people to feel passionate about God.
And I just want people to go to heaven.
I just want people to know that they are not alone EVER.
And that they have eternal life if they want it.
And that

God

Loves

You. 

All the posts about people breaking up and complaining about a boyfriend or a girlfriend or being heart broken over someone. 

That feeling like you’re going to die? That feeling that aches all-over? The feeling that life could not possibly go on like this. That there can only be nothingness.

That’s how I feel about my GOD. 
That’s how I feel when I think about what we DID TO HIM.
That’s how I feel when I think about His sacrifice for us.
That’s how I feel when I think about the fact that He loves me even though I spat in His face, and lied to Him, and hid from Him, and told Him that His gift was garbage, and destroyed His temple, and forgot about Him, and hated Him, and joined in the fight against Him, and used His name as a curse, and that I do these things STILL without even thinking about it. That I CONTINUALLY am a SINNER. 

That’s how I feel when I know that He makes me BLAMELESS, SPOTLESS, PERFECT

when I deserve to rot in hell. 

That’s why I can’t talk to Him without crying, without screaming and wailing and sobbing.

Because I deserve to be put to DEATH. I deserve to SUFFER FOREVER.
He was PERFECT. He did
NOTHING.

And He put that on Himself. 

If you’ve never been TORN APART inside over the fact that Jesus Christ loves you,

YOU DON’T KNOW LOVE.

      Last week I was on fire for God. I created this tumblr, and was listening to “traditional” Christian music all day. And things were great! I felt good about life and about where I was spiritually. 
      But as the week went on, my passion started to fade. If God was with me and I loved him, why was I so sad? If I was filled with Christ, why did I feel so terrible? Why didn’t I feel God’s ever-present Spirit? I got in a really dark place, really fast.

     Often, people turn to God when things get bad. When they have nowhere else to go. When only God can fix them. However, more often, they forget about God when the good times roll.
     I don’t know about you guys, but when I am especially connected with God and I just feel awesome for Him, I tend to neglect my Christian responsibilities. I don’t read my Bible, and I justify listening to music that might be borderline inappropriate. I don’t pray with the passion or the fervency that I do when I am desperate. I say to myself, I am positive! I am full of God! What could possibly bring me down?
      But, honestly, when we are on fire for God, the devil takes opportunity. When we reach out to God, he tries to pull back our outstretched arms. Not with force, of course, but with persuasion. A gentle tug here and a subtle pull there will do the trick. 
     Personally, I do a lot of self-talking. And when I am happy or content, I can easily bring myself up by talking to and convincing my mind of positive things. When I am even the smallest bit negative, however, I can convince myself that I don’t even deserve to be alive! I have a pretty good idea where these “voices in my head” are coming from. Picture the comical image of the devil on one shoulder and the angel on the other: a simple illustration for a much more sinister truth.
     Anyway, my point is, don’t abandon the Christian habits and the Godly feelings that you have when in despair. When everything is going great, don’t put down your Bible. Don’t stop praying. Read about the blessings of God and His ultimate glory. Tell him about all the beautiful things you see in a day that you are grateful for. Be routine and be constant. Be VIGILANT. For the adversary never sleeps. 

Sometimes, I just don’t feel loved. 
I feel completely unloveable and broken.
But I really listened to “Beloved” by Tenth Avenue North for the first time the other day, and it made me cry (I’m not going to lie—the whole album made me sob like a baby when I took the time to listen to it!).
God is AMAZING! He loves us NO MATTER WHAT! Even if we turn from Him, He will always welcome us back into his arms. There is no love that can compare to the infinite love of God.

in·fi·nite/ˈinfənit/

  This is the definition of infinite from Google. Look closely at the synonyms for infinite. Yes, GOD is a synonym for infinite! God is ENDLESS! He has a LIMITLESS love for YOU, specifically! 
     There may be times when you just want to give up. You may feel there is no hope, no love in the world, no love in your heart. But, as long as there is God (which is for boundless time!) there is love. Turn to Him in your moments of sorrow or darkness. Declaring that you are a Christian or that you follow God isn’t always about showing strength. It’s about admitting that we are weak without God. Churches aren’t houses for the Holy. They are hospitals for the broken. 
     And when you are ever in doubt or in turmoil, “Be still, and know that I am God.”