Not Of This World

Now here’s a cute puppy to represent my joy.

And it really pains me that I haven’t been doing my job by being a witness of the Gospel and of God. Yes, I want everyone to be saved, SO much!!! But why is it I can’t even get past my own fears and inhibitions to witness for God and give them that opportunity? I just pray that I will have the ability to go forth and spread the good word with unbridled joy from now on. 

Go away.

when I think of how much God loves me. 

I keep thinking about the patriarchal blessing and how I can’t wait till I am ready to receive my own because I want to hear what God has to say to me.

But then I realized that God talks to me everyday. He gave us the scriptures so we could talk to Him and know of His great love WHENEVER WE WANT. His love letters are at our fingertips for us to read again and again. How amazing is that! 

So, yeah, I’m still excited for the day to come when I can be ready to receive my patriarchal blessing. But I’ve got God ALWAYS, no matter what. 

:D

God has given me the great opportunity to draw individuals to Him using tumblr. I created this tumblr on January 22, 2012. It is now February 6, 2012, and I already have 72 followers! This is so amazing, just to see the number rise every day! Keep faith, followers, for He has created our paths to cross. I hope to teach you just as much as you all teach me daily. Thank you so much you guys! Glory to God! 

For your kind words and encouragement. 
I am truly blessed to have such a great group of followers.

Sometimes I post things when I am in such despair that I do not think. Mostly, I do not remember that of which I was reminded of today: It always gets better. Even after the darkest night, the morning will come with renewed joy. Thanks. :)

Please Please PLEASE read this to the end, even if you do not love or believe in God.

I try not to become angry when I see someone who is actively speaking out against God or doubters who are fervent in their mission to make others doubt. 

Okay, so at first I get kind of mad. And I start to think, who do they think they are?

But then I start to think, who do I think they are?

They are a child of God. They are a human being, created with just as much meticulous thought and love as I was. They are blessed in Christ. They struggle, just as I do sometimes.

And then, I feel regret. Regret, because I cannot save EVERYONE I encounter. I don’t know if you’ve ever felt this kind of regret, especially with someone you are close to that you simply cannot seem to reach with the Spirit. It is heart wrenching. It is HORRIBLE.
And then I start to think about how GOD must feel about this person! He loves them more than ANYTHING! And He has to live with their rejection of Him ALL THE TIME!

The point of this seemingly pointless post is that Christians don’t approach atheists or non-believers or doubters to debate or argue to the point of stalemate. Okay, some may, but that’s not very Christian of them. But true Christians should feel pained by sadness over the turmoil that this person will face without God. And they should want to help to plant the seeds of faith, LOVINGLY.

I’m sorry if you’ve ever been wronged by a Christian or someone who follows God. People are corrupt. We cannot perfectly represent Christ or his love. And a lot of “Christians” don’t even try. 
I vow will try never to post anything hateful or untrue. I vow will try to be as Christ-like as I can. I vow will try to love you no matter who you are.  Because I can’t be perfect. Because no HUMAN is. But I will do my best to be your friend. And I will do everything I can to help you through this difficult, mysterious, joyful, and sometimes hurtful life.

God loves you, and so should I.

So I will.

<3 

     I’m a little late on “today” (January 26, 2012) since it’s already tomorrow, but today was an AWESOME day, God! I had dinner at McDonalds with my good Mormon friend, and we had some time to catch up on our lives this past week. We have both been very busy! But it was a GREAT time talking with him, and I went back to my dorm in a great mood and got back to posting for my fellow God-driven tumblrs. I was frustrated earlier today, but the issue that made me so upset was easily solved, a very important fact that I need to always keep in mind when the little things get me worked up. Also, I overcame the flu/sickness that was weighing me down. Yay! Also also, my ask box worked tonight! What a great blessing! (My ask box is disabled from letting ask other people questions because of my college’s internet firewall. I hope this isn’t a one time thing and that it is a modification that has fixed this issue permanently :D ).
     However, the end of my day was a little discouraging because of some troubles I am having emotionally with a close friend. Please help me have strength and assertiveness in this relationship, God. Allow me to confront the issue head-on instead of half-way solving it like I have been.  
     Oh! I almost forgot. It was snowing when I went to dinner, and it was the most perfect, beautiful snow I have ever seen! It was such a blessing to see your awesome might in the tiniest snowflakes that were falling all around me. Seeing your hand in nature all around me is something that expels faith related doubt from my mind instantly. It is truly scientific proof that you have a divine hand in this existence. 
      Thank you, God. You are so powerful.